Life as I know it...

Right now I am feeling: I'm gonna miss my bed :(
Right now I am listening to: None, I am watching TV.

Finally!! It's weekend :) I actually woke up at 5am. Couldn't sleep anymore. Now that I think back I know why I couldn't sleep. I had this very disturbing dream about a police officer and lipgloss. Don't ask me what I dreamt, cuz I don't even remember it well. I just know that is was very strange... and kind of funny too. I have planned a fun filled, busy weekend this week. Now that I work 40 hrs a week I have promised myself that I would enjoy all the free time I get and do as many things as I want to in the weekends. Of course my schedule on Sunday starts at 12:00pm  *lol*. 

What??

Yeah I know what you are thinking?!

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A girl needs her beauty sleep okay!! (Of course in my case it is totally different). I'm gonna miss my bed :'(

Anywayzz..... my brother has a Soccer competition tomorrow and I promised him that I would go and watch him lose. *lol* There are actually 2 teams in this competition, that consists of family members. So if one of them loses, the other one MUST win. Of course it would be awesome if they both got to the Final 'battle'.

I also planned on doing some heavy Shopping tomorrow :) I despirately need new shoes.

Well I am off to bed now...

*sigh*

I am going to miss my bed tomorrow :(

My kingsize bed

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Oh well,  Goodnight!

~Ayesha

Right now I am feeling: exhausted
Right now I am listening to: *sigh* nothing today:(

Again... it has been quite a while since I updated this journal. I have been too busy. I started a new job for which I have to wake up at 5:45am and leave the house at 6:45am. I start at 8:00am and work untill 5:00pm! So I work 40hrs a week (I have a break of one hour every day) I just started this week and two weeks before that I had to take care of some stuff  before I could really start working. I have to take the tram, the train, two different subways and I have to walk before I get there. You see how much I want to work? :P

Today was a very busy day... tomorrow will be even worse. The girl I work with will not be able to work tomorrow so I have to take care of all her tasks too. I hope I'll survive ;)

I think I'll just go and rest now... I feel awefull!

That's probably why this message is not as cheery or fun to read as usual.
Can't wait 'till it's weekend again.

Oh well... everybody has his or her bad days right?

~Ayesha

Right now I am feeling: tired
Right now I am listening to: none

WOW it has been wayyyy too long since I updated this journal. Soooo many things have happened that I really don't know where to start. I think I will have to take out my real-life/non-electronic journal out to see what I have been through all these days.

Right now I am feeling: crappy
Right now I am listening to: Sisqo-incomplete

I woke up, feeling horrible. But I really felt like doing some excercise. So I went to the swimming pool!!!Good huh?! I was a bit surprised myself. And it wasn't even that cold outside. (or maybe it only seemed that way, cuz I took the car and turned the heater wayyy up!)

They have this sort of steam-bath/sauna thingy at the swimming pool. It is for 15 minutes and it has this nice, relaxing scent. I think it was a mix of Eucalyptus and Mint. Suddenly my cold just seemed to vanish.

Of course when I stepped out of the thing, my cold came back as fast as it went away :(

When I came home I did nothing but sleep and watch tv. (Yeah that is my usual Sunday).

Guess I'll go back to bed now.

hmm... I just realised I have to make an appointment with my hair-dresser soon. My hair really looks bad.

*Smooch*
Bubbye

~Dushi 

Right now I am feeling: sick
Right now I am listening to: Kevin Lyttle- Fever

I am feeling soooooo sick right now, I think I have a fever or something. My head hurts, my throat hurts and I sneeze so hard, that I'm afraid my bedroom windows will break. I hate to be sick, I feel useless when I am. I can't do anything, nothing tastes good (not even my sweet chocolate:( )

I was planning on going swimming again tomorrow (yeah it is Sunday again), but I don't know for sure. My cousin told me she wanted to go and I kind of said that I would pick her up. Now I HAVE to go.

Oh well, maybe the excercise will do me good. At least I hope so.

But the combination of wet hair when I come out of the swimming pool and the freezing cold weather outside may not do me any good. In fact, I think it may even make my fever worse.

Guess I will spend my sunday like I usually do.... in my bed, under my warm blanket.. SLEEPING!

~Dushi

Right now I am feeling: Creative-I'm in a writing mood
Right now I am listening to: None, I am watching cartoons ;)

I am staring out of my window. Street lights surround the big tree on the other side of the street in a very strange light. Everything else around the tree is dark. Only a few branches of the tree are lit up by the yellow/white light.

It looks kind of spooky.

All of a sudden I feel inspiration coming up for the book that I am writing. It is weird how normal "everyday stuff" can inspire me for my book. My most important inspirations are of course my family. But then there are also the people who come to my dad's shop or even the people who walk passed me when I am outside.

Hmm... who knows, there may be a role in there somewhere for the annoying man who always comes to my dad's shop.

I love to write. I think very carefully about the things I want to put in my book. Before I begin, I create most of the characters on paper. I even imagine what they must look like and what their personalities are.    When I was younger I used to write short stories and give them to my cousins te read. Also when we had to write papers for school, I always got good grades. My teachers used to tell me that I have a very creative mind.   When I got older I started thinking. I knew I could do more with this creative mind of mine. That is when I started to write books. My first book is not finished yet, but it will be...soon. If I don't have inspiration to work on one of my books (I have three) I just put that one "on hold".  What is the use in sitting behind your notes and not knowing what to write? I don't want to force myself into writing something.  Because if I do, it never comes out the way I actually want and I end up writing the whole piece over, and over, and over...etc.

It may sound weird, but when I write it just.... happens. I mean, if I feel inspired, all I have to do is pick up a pen and paper. As soon as the pen hits the paper, the whole story (or at least one chapter) comes out naturally.

Some people might think: "Why all the hard work and efforts if you are not even going to publish the books?" 
 I have always considered writing a hobby, I don't want to make it my job or anything. That would only take the fun out of it for me.

*sigh*
I am getting a bit sleepy right now. I guess I'll just stare at my scary tree again, untill I fall asleep.

Good Night!

~Dushi

Right now I am feeling: dorky

I did a test today on the internet, I found it on one of my friend's livejournal.

this is what came out of the test...

Right now I am feeling: geeky
Right now I am listening to: Juan Luis Guerra-Quisiera ser un pez/Proyecto Uno-Monotonia

It is still very cold outside, so I decided to stay at home today. I was planning to go swimming again, but when I felt the icy wind outside, I ran back into my house. Put on my pyjamas, crawled under my blanket and fell asleep again.  I didn't wake up untill I was completely rested.

I am soooo jealous of my cousin, he is on an airplane right now...on his way to a warm country. If I could I would go with him, it is only for 2 weeks. I would not even have to book a hotel, my dad has a house there. But unfortunately I can not go on vacation yet. Maybe next month. My aunt and cousin wanted to take my mom and me to England for a weekend. We'll see.

I envy those who go away at least every month, they don't have to worry about money, cuz they have plenty.

*sigh*  If only I met a cute rich guy...

~Dushi

Right now I am feeling: cold
Right now I am listening to: Suzanna- Tudo pa bo

I went to my dad's shop today, to help him. On the way to the shop I walked very fast. It was so cold outside, that tears just came out of my eyes. My toes were all cold (like they always are in the winter) and my hands were freezing. I couldn't even feel my ears anymore, so I was not sure if they were still attached to my head or that they had fallen off somewhere on the road.

I was so glad when I finally reached the shop. Today that annoying man (see last week) came to our shop again. He knows that he did something wrong that day because he could not even look me in the eye. Or maybe his car was just parked wrong again and he was in a hurry. He did give me a weird look when he left, as if he was thinking of saying something irritating again but I think he changed his mind. I ignored him completely. There were also a lot of other people in the shop at that time, so maybe he was just too embarassed to say something. GOOD FOR HIM! Sometimes I wonder how stupid people can be. They come to our shop, asking stupid questions. I tell you, if you would spend one day in that shop you would roll over the floor laughing.

When I came home I decided to stay at home. I called my cousin because he is going on vacation tomorrow. There were no good movies on tv, so I turned on my laptop and played neopets untill very late at night. Made some good neopoints LOL.

Now I am going to bed, I am a bit tired.
Bubbye for now.

~Dushi

Right now I am feeling: Very Very Cold!!
Right now I am listening to: Son By Four- Purest of Pain

Brrrrrrrr, it is soooooo cold right now. I can not believe the weather has turned this quickly. Just a couple of days ago I thought WHERE IS THE WINTER?!  Well I think I got what I wanted.

Right now I am dreaming of a white beach, the sun burning on my skin and a nice cold drink next to me. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live at the beach in some warm country. Watch the sunset everyday, go for long walks, etc. Guess I'll just keep on dreaming.

Sometimes I wish I was allready retired. Today I saw this cute old couple in the tram, talking about their old days and talking about where they were going to on their next trip. They seemed so happy...holding hands. 

That is what I want when I reach that age. But before I get there, I still have a whole life to live. Things are not very easy for me right now. But I really hope that some day, some way all the dark clouds will clear up and the sun will shine once again.

I want to have that safe feeling again, from my childhood. Everything seemed so easy back then. No worries, no headaches. Mommy and Daddy protecting you from all the bad things.

Don't you ever want to feel that way?

~Dushi